A new adventure

I have decided to lose weight. I won’t hide it, I’m now at 300 pounds. Which I have not been for years. I lost 110 pounds of it on weight watchers years ago, and have watched it slowly creep back. Year after year. first it was my medications, then my health problems and finally a ridiculously hot summer that made me peak at this high weight.

I am very unhappy about it. I’ve cried, I have only 3 shirts. For someone on my income that is not cool. The Salvation Army at half price day is my friend.

I wanted to join Weight Watchers again. Only because I like their on-line site. My roomie told me there are free sites similiar, so I went looking thanks to the magic of Google.

I found http://www.sparkpeople.com and I am impressed thus far. Their site also tells you how many calories a day you should consume, how many you should burn. Just like Weight Watchers, you have a food and exercise diary. The site has message boards, recipes, information on all sorts of health related information, and exercise videos. I was particularly impressed with the seated videos. It gives me a place to start!

I will keep everyone posted on my progress! I am hopeful.

The site though is just a tool, I know I have to want this. For the right reasons.

I don’t care about how I look so much as how healthy I am. I know this weight is dangerous. Diabetes, Heart Disease, Lung Disease, High Blood Pressure and Strokes all run in my family. Not to metion the muscle pain and fatigue I deal with that will soon be diagnosed. I know no matter what is, weight is not it’s friend.

I won’t lie, I do care about how I look, but I don’t care about being super skinny. I’m not built that way.

This is me last winter at about 273 pounds. I was in a men’s size large.

This is me only a few months later. I’m very happy, but…sadly a 2XL who needs clothes like crazy.

 

Happy in both, just bigger in one. I have to admit last winter I felt pretty. I had used new skin products and my skin looked better than it has in 15 years, I was in smaller sizes so I had awesome clothes, I hadn’t stupidly put shorter layers in my hair and it laid properly. I was a auburn haired woman after years and years of black hair.

It’s hard to feel pretty at this weight, with my hair far too layered and my skin not as clear because I had to switch products. Price hike.

I think mostly it’s hard to feel pretty when you don’t feel good too, and it’s hard to feel good this big.

So I am starting a journey. New medications are coming into my life for my migraines, I will be seeing Orthopedic residents soon at the OSU school of Osteopathy, thanks to the Oklahoma Tobacco tax, and now to lose weight.

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About butterflyconfetti

I am a almost 40 year old from Tulsa, Oklahoma. I live here with my best friend, my cat Ruby Cadha and her cat Gabe. I consider myself a wanna be poet, an imaginary artist, a pretend photographer, and someone who might possibly have something to say about a little bit of everything. Sit back, enjoy the ride.

Posted on September 21, 2012, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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